Well, I said in my last post that I would tell you somethings and to be honest I don’t remember. I have had some heavy blows the last few days and some very strong realizations. I am going to make this a long post. Sit down, grab a cup of coffee or tea and prepare yourself for the ride of crazy emotions and hopefully some help from God on situations in your life.
First, we didn’t get the house. SO no “new” house for us…YET!! I was heartbroken today, not only from finding out we didn’t get it but after stressing the past few days about it I had built myself up so high and had “all my hopes” in this one house. I have put a few things on hold and have lost a few really good, opportunities due to putting things on hold…ALL for a house!! My poor husband has also had to deal with the ups and downs of crazy here lately. Here is where God steps in. We have been looking for “The” house for about 2 years now…yes 2 YEARS!! So, I am upset and stressed and downright in a bad mood. I start reading my devotion today, it really had nothing to do with the situation at hand but reminded me to sit and pray and let God do his thing. I had an overwhelming peace come over me and a calm. AND THEN!!!! Not one, not two BUT NINE, yes 9 houses showed up in our search that had not been there or noticed before and all the weight was gone and I felt God tell me there are more. Do not worry about the one you didn’t get, realize there are more. Then something hit me, and I mean HIT ME!! It was a two year old, by the way. That, I’m guessing, was just to drive the point home. There are things in our life that we can not control as much as we try to control them, if we give it over to God, it all seems to fall into place. I know I have heard that my entire life, let it go to God…just let it go. You always seem to not be able to let it go the entire way. It is very hard to let it go. I promise I have a problem letting it go. Well, to day I let it go and it was a fantastic feeling. So…
On to something new I’m doing that I think is helping. I have started a very simple way of studying the Bible. I got some notebook paper and when I read a verse I write it down and comment on it. I have about 5 pages so far and started yesterday really. I will put a part of that on here at the end.
I really miss some of my friends this week. I know the kids are getting ready for school and we are in a new area and that is just how it goes I guess. I hope that MOPS will lead to some good things this year and some lasting friendships.
Okay, like I said all over the place lately…here is how I’m doing my Bible study. I don’t have a reading plan or anything like that. Just got a notebook and am taking notes. You really understand more and concentrate more. Here is a small clip of what I do with my Bible study…